i needed to thank yisheng for awaking the Jesslyn in me * which i already did *
the jesslyn that was ONCE decisive, demanding and confident.
well, i believed that it is hidden somewhere deep deep inside me with the initial thought that my previous behaviour was uncouth as a result i chose to conceal that part of me and locked them away in faraway land.
as a matter of fact, i was being too conceited of myself, assuming that it would only happen when during casual conversations. * the idea is not to ASSUME * however, this mindset of mine already infiltrated my sub-consciousness and gained total control of how i managed things. including major projects, meetings, interviews and any other possible major thing that could aid me for a possible easier and higher self satisfaction life. -.- * big reason for the decrease in confidence *
reminiscing the good ol' days , leading the group to a successful battle, attaining satisfying results. who would have thought that the present was a total opposite? instead of being the head of the pack, i became the assistant sheep who pretended to know * in denial/ act smart * where she's going.
i have lost myself in my poly years and now it's time to awake the sleeping dragon in me. * rawr *
LOL.
I NEED EUNICE.
asap-need-to-meet-u.
meeting the aunties tmr tho :)
awesome much.
teehee.
